Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Day 12 Chris brown (the real one!!!)
As I've grown older, the days just seem to fly by so fast. I look back on my life and tell myself why didn't I take advantage of the opportunities I had taken for granted.For instance, taking advantage of an education, building a resume, taking better care of myself. Not everone is as lucky as I was growing up. The children growing up in the Ida B. Wells had to work twice as hard as your average kid to acheive their dreams. What opprtunity were you given growing up, and how would you change it if you had a second time around?
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Cliché as it is, school would be mine. I try to not regret things I’ve done in my past but they way I treated school is defiantly something I would change. Its not that I didn’t get anything out of school, but if I would have pushed myself a little more it would be a lot easier for me and my parents now. I knew I had it in me but I just didn’t try. My parents were big facilitators; they never really criticized anything I did so I never really felt pushed. I plan to make up for it here at Columbia. This isn’t like high school at all and I realize now this is for me no one else. High school never felt like that for some reason. I realize that theses 4 years are an extremely small portion of my life and I need to treat them according to how I want my future. If I would have treated high school like that, I would have had scholarships and awards, blah blah blah. Cliché isn’t it.
well its true sometimes it does feel like the days just fly by very fast.The kids living in the Ida B. Wells had to work very hard to be able to achieve their goals, everyday was a struggle. They didnt loose any opportunity they got to achieve something they would get right at it and not let it go. Did i ever let an opportunity go when i was growiing up, yes i did. when i was in six grade it was the worst year of my life that when i started messing up outside of school. I failed six grade but because I just did not attend school as often. The principle of the school gave me the opportunity to go to summer school. I decided not to go at that time i just did not care about my education i could have been in 7th grade and not stay behind a year but i didnt take advanteage of the opportunity i was given. My family was very upset they where worried about me i cared less about them. But then i picked up my life and fixed it and there is not a day i dont wish i can go back and change it. How would i change it i would have attended summer school and cared more about school. I would also changed who i was i would go back and change the day i entered the gang.
As a child, I always tried to take the opportunities that I was given. In elementary school, I was never admitted into the “Talent and Gifted” (or T.A.G.) classes that the school had to offer. I was quite sure why but every year I would try to sign up, and every year I never had it. I knew I was just as talented and just as gifted as the other children that the class admitted; perhaps maybe even more. I tried so hard to prove to the T. A. G. students that I was artistic enough to join their ranks. During my 4th grade year I was asked by the librarian to join a special team of students who participated in a competition. This competition was a test of artistic skill and creativity. That opportunity was larger than I had thought. Although our team didn’t place our first year, during 5th grade year our team won third out of the whole district. If I didn’t take up that offer of join a team of students we might not have won. By the way, none of those T. A. G. kids were admitted to the team.
Growing up I was given many opportunities from my mother. More so than others that were in the same situations that I was. Even though growing up my family didn’t have much because of the dad’s beliefs that you shouldn’t have anything nice and we didn’t deserve it and was selfish. My mom and I would do things together and go shopping at Neiman Marcus on the first Sunday of each month. It was nice to talk to her about everything. She was and is still the only person that has only believed in me. She would back me on everything that I wanted to do. My mom pushed me to achieve my dreams no matter what it would take. She said no matter what other people say I believe you can do it. You just need to put more effort into it. She said she would back me to go to any school and pay any amount of money to get an education. I would pay for you to get 3 graduate degrees if it was what you want to do and you are truly “happy”. The one thing I regret about all this. I knew that she was the only one believing in me even when no one else did and expressed this. But I feel in a sense I took advantage of her, and I let her down when I wouldn’t try as hard as I could and put as much effort in something as I could of. But starting over in a sense I know now that I have the opportuntie to start over and make her proud. I know she would say you’ve made me proud on making it this far and not getting too frustrated and giving up. I feel that I haven’t done half for her what she has done for me. I want to prove her wrong in sense (I feel that she feels shes unsure if I’ll be able to finish.) I mean she wants me to finish and she’ll be the only one that sticks through the whole thing with me start to finish. But I want to show her I can complete something and show her all the time she’s put in me for the past 21 years was all worth it.
I think that one opportunity that I could have taken advantage of was my education. I wish that I would have been more serious about school. I could have gotten a better GPA. I could have gotten more scholarships and schools could have given me more money. I most likely wouldn’t have had to be in Bridge. If I was given a second chance I would do exceptionally better and I will study every night. I would read things that we didn’t have to read and I wouldn’t go to sleep in class. I would try my best to stay awake. Again I would take education more seriously.
King Phillip
An opportunity I wish I would have not taken for granted would be my High School education. To be for real I just didn’t give a shit. I never thought I would even make it out high school. Until my senior year I was acting like it wasn’t anything. Now when I am looking at all these loans and payment plans just to pay off five classes in college, it too expensive. All that education in high school was compared to this price damn near free. I wish I would have paid more attention and listened to my teachers. I never realized just how much the government thinks we should pay only to benefit our selves. It really don’t make no since to me but that’s neither here nor there. If I would have stopped ditching school, acting like my shit didn’t stink and really wanna learn what was being thought I could have came to Columbia knowing the math, and knowing how to act in a Lecture hall. I am paying out the ass for some of the things I would have learned in high school… my freshman year in my “into to tech” class I never did nothing, just surfed the web all calls period. Well I somehow pasted the class with a C probably with my wonderful gangsta charm, and when Columbia asked me to take the F.I.T test I had no clue what was on it. And now sometime during my four EXPENSIVE years here I have to take another intro class for about a “g” a pop……. Money, money, money…..
I would not change anything that happened to me in my life. Because I can't imagine not being myself, I feel as if changing something in my life will change me. I think everything happens to teach and so you can grow.I think that if I missed something then it was not meant to be I see no point i crying over spilled milk. I do sometimes for I am human, but it last for about an hour. But after that I cruse myslef out because I should not be acting like everyone else because that sucks. and blah blah blah I have to write in enlish 2oo words. But I’ve been passing up opportunity my whole life why because if it doesn’t feel right I ‘m not in it. That simple if something doesn’t fit in my life I’m not going to force it in you know. I just try to live my life one day at a time step by step word by word.
The opportunities i had when i was growing up were good and bad. i look at it as like my mom helped me a lot when i was growing up. The opportunities I had was a mom that love me so much the teachers I had and the resource I had the change I got give me a reason the not give up in school the teacher there was real helpful to me and took me and transform me to from being and immature little boy to a guy that know how to act doing the right time the people in my like guy that know how to act doing the right time the people in my life influence me to keep going to completer my dreams. The opportunities go on for miles the good things about the opportunities I get are helpful to growing up and learning where I need to do to be successful
One of the many opportunities that I was given was being part of a family that stood for accomplishments. But the bad part was that I fell of track my third year in high school. I was a good student until I became a junior in high school; that is when I wanted to rebel and have some fun in life. That would have to be my biggest regret in life. I could’ve basically had anything I wanted in life, but I cocked it up so bad. Now I seem that I was really stupid for not behaving in the right manner. I turned from a good boy to a slacker. I became an expert at ditching and procrastinating. My friends and I were little rascals who laughed in the face of intimidation. Our parents were sooooo shocked that their children were acting out like this. I think it was so bad because when I was a freshman I would always say,” People that ditch are crazy”. But in due time, I was one of those people who would always try to leave school early and have fun. That’s why now I look back on it as a learning experience.
When I was growing up, I had many oppurtunities through sports. When I was a freshman highschool, I was given the oppurtunity to play for the A team over the B team for a certain soccer club. I was given a spot on the first team, good things, because a new coach to the club used to coach me 5 years before and put in a good word for me. My brother was already playing for that club and that usually helps people get on the team. When I got to highschool, I had friends from three or four different schools. Although my school wasn't that big, I knew almost everyone in my class. It was the best year of highschool for me becaues almost all my friends were there. But I did smoke and drink too much. If I wasn't partying every weekend, I probably would have had a better focus on the soccer team. I probably would have stayed better shape. I would have showed my coach, who never saw me play to my full potential, that I appreciate my spot on the team. But I didn't appreciate the spot. I could have proven to him that I wanted to play for him the next year. Those four or five months was my chance to build myself for the next four years of highschool by playing for that first team. I slacked off and ended up on the second team for the next two years.
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